For the past couple of days you have just been in my dreams every time, just there as if nothing ever happened and making me confused about what reality is. One time it was so realistic that I thought it had really happened and when I woke up I was in a really confused state. Why the hell is this happening now. I don’t really want to see these dreams right now. That’s how I really feel. I need other people in my life which can change the definition of interaction that I have with others compared to you.

So when I woke up today at 3PM I was oddly fine, usually when I stay up until 8 AM and pass out I have a headache for a couple minutes after waking up etc, but this time I was fine. Then I thought back to what I was dreaming about and it was about elementary school. Damn that was some OLD memories. I remembered that I actually used to LIKE studying. I loved finishing books of simple math, do work sheets as they came and I played educational games that had helped me expand my vocabulary. My mind was blown at this point at what I USED to do. Shit I loved reading books up until high school. Now I don’t do any of the above. Man… that was some oooold nostalgia…. Too bad it won’t change much LOL.

So recently I’ve started to more proactively push for what I want and I mean in real life and not the virtual one that I’m stuck in. Sam shared his new years resolution with me which was to “grow a pair” as he makes that his resolution every year it seems. Quite frankly I talk a lot of shit for someone who doesn’t have any to throw around. So I’m picking it up. I’m starting to do things that I could have never done without speaking to certain people, shit I don’t remember if I mentioned it here but a couple days before Christmas I helped do sound checking and what not at the Nippon Club in NYC. I got to meet a Broadway singer, a young singing duo the Soyemi sisters, and the Nippon Club Chorus(whom I didn’t really talk to, heh). Just the other day I was helping paint a music studio in the lower-mid Manhattan area. I just want to do things that might push me forward now. Web design is definitely something I want to do as well, probably going to try to put music and web design together somehow….

I’m moving forward. Next is moving forward physically. I NEED TO DO SOMETHING LOL. So, let’s do it.

Finally. I’ve gone to Bryant park a couple times this week to see my friend at work. Every time I’ve went there a smile popped up in my face. Sometimes shit just doesn’t go away. Congratulations.

Yet we live another year without the world ending by some prophesied reason by crazy peoplez!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lng07og1G7o&feature=youtu.be

This video has changed my look on WoT and also on a couple of other games too. It’s fun.